All of this came about because I was casually contemplating life and death one day. Have you ever thought about how they are sort of similar? One day you exist in a sort of hidden way, and the next day you are very much alive and in the world when you're born. Likewise, one day you are definitely living and the next...you aren't. Morbid or not, it's true.
I'm sure many have thought about this earlier than it sank in for me but...what are we even doing here on this earth? What is our purpose? It has to be greater than easily existing. I mean, think about it. Without some sort of mission, we are literally just these strange creatures...wandering, doing strange things that arbitrarily fill our time. Maybe it is just the optimist in me, but there has to be more than that, right? How do we find out about this true purpose? How do we identify something that will fill up our days so that they're meaningFULL?
(And then sometimes I digress)...but...is purpose even important at all if it could all be gone tomorrow? Can't we just live and die and never ever have it mean anything more than just...that? Are we trying to make too much meaning of something that literally has no meaning at all?
I can't believe that.
If our time is limited and our purpose unclear but only set by ourselves...and if we truly only have a finite time to figure it out...isn't the answer to living life to it's utmost fullest defining a purpose that will continue long after the dying day?
I've decided that the way for me to be filled with the most purpose is to extend my life through sharing it with other people. I can't imagine that God created me to live and die, and nothing more. I believe we are far more extraordinary and useful than that. I've been created as someone with strong convictions, a loving (but imperfect) heart, and with a deeply empathetic persona...those are gifts and are not meant to gather dust on a shelf, or to just be acknowledged and filed...they're meant to be used. It seems like I have been given vast opportunity to fulfill this purpose through being a mentor, partner, friend and in all of the other ways I enter relationships with other people. Some want to make a difference in the world...I just want to make a difference in people. I want to give them whatever they need from me through sharing my life, my story, my beliefs, my struggles...whatever it may look like from day to day. Whatever I can do to impart pieces of the gifts given to me onto others so that the world won't be void of them...ever, because I truly believe that we are all that special.
The beauty of it all, and really what makes the world go 'round, is that we all have a different purpose. I love it so much, and I am happy to be able to contribute to the lives of others through mine. What is your purpose, friend?
